Conserving Abstinence Going: My Journey of Swearing Off Intercourse for 5 Weeks

(Image: Myles Goode/Hope Flynn)

Welcome to How I Do It, the collection wherein we provide you with a seven-day sneak peek into the intercourse lifetime of a stranger.

This week, we meet up with Hope Flynn, a heterosexual 31-year-old who advised us how she was doing it earlier this yr.

Hope, who’s head of content material for iPlaySafe and the founding father of on-line group Feed Me Feminine, advised us all about how she was swearing off masturbation and porn for 5 weeks again in February.

She’d been seeing a brand new man who she was ‘completely into’ on the time, and had been about to jet off to Australia for a protracted journey when she and this man, who she affectionately known as ‘a brief king’, agreed it could be enjoyable to go with out orgasms till they noticed one another once more – ‘in an attractive dom grasp type of approach’.

‘For anybody questioning if I managed to go the total 5 weeks with no intercourse or masturbation,’ she tells, ‘I did.

‘I’m genuinely very happy with myself as I didn’t suppose I’d obtain it.’

Hope says abstaining from intercourse was the straightforward half – it was the shortage of masturbation that she actually struggled with.

‘On some days my urges have been uncontrollable,’ she says. ‘I had what I can solely describe as a continuing pulsation inside my vulva.

‘I actually keep in mind at instances considering I don’t know why I’ve put myself by way of this.’

When she acquired again residence to London, Quick King ‘was instantly changed’ along with her vibrator, as their dalliances ‘fizzled out’ throughout her tip away.

However although Quick King isn’t round anymore, her vow to go orgasm-free has had an enduring impression. Right here’s how Hope acquired on this week…


The entire expertise with the Quick King has made me wish to proceed abstaining from intercourse for some time longer. 

He’s a pleasant very nice man, however ultimately I don’t suppose both of us felt a lot pleasure in direction of one another. We’re pleasant nonetheless however let’s simply say I gained’t be going for anymore dinners with him.

My predominant takeaways from the entire thing with him are:

  1. It isn’t smart to start out attending to know somebody and sleeping with them when they’re doing Dry January. Simply wait till February as your notion of what they stand up of their spare time may actually change.
  2. I rushed into intercourse with somebody new once I myself had not emotionally healed from my earlier relationship expertise.
  3. I have to settle down once I’m making an attempt to precise myself when somebody has irritated me.
  4. I have to belief extra in my intestine response to issues, it’s often proper the primary time it lets me know.

Hope Flynn

‘All of this made me wish to break my interval of celibacy’ (Image: Hope Flynn)


I’ve been getting fairly a couple of messages the final couple of days from a man that I hook up with. He has a tattoo round, let’s simply say, a really darkish place, so my buddies and I discuss with him as ‘Tatty Batty’.

In the future we would really begin calling guys by their actual names however for now, the nicknames are simpler. 

I’ve all the time actually preferred mine and his relationship as we’ve each been sincere about our expectations of one another – which aren’t very a lot. He travels quite a bit for work and I’ve dedication/belief points, so our scenario has all the time felt excellent to me.  

We simply hang around, share jokes, have nice intercourse, after which don’t hassle one another till the subsequent time. That’s what I like about our scenario and that’s what has made this inflow of messages these days appear a bit of out of the bizarre. 

He texted me within the night to say he needed to speak to me about intercourse. For some motive this mechanically made me panic – my mind began considering all kinds.

When he messaged once more, it learn: ‘I don’t wish to simply maintain f*****g – it’s high quality whenever you first meet somebody – but when f*****g is what that is, let’s make it EXCEPTIONAL’

I had no thought what to make of this. Was he making an attempt to say our extremely good intercourse isn’t adequate? Does he need extra from me than simply intercourse? Does he not wish to sleep with me once more? It even made me suppose he has a girlfriend – loopy logic, I do know, however my thoughts simply went there as a result of I don’t belief anyone. The entire thing confused me. 

I’ve merely by no means checked out him and regarded something extra. We continued the dialog about how we are able to make our intercourse distinctive as ‘f*****g is what that is…’

Some time later, we began to change some naughty pictures. He stored speaking about all of the issues he needs to do to me and the way he can’t wait to simply stare at me bare and take me all in.

All of this made me wish to break my interval of celibacy and simply have a protracted intercourse session with him. We organized to satisfy on Thursday. 


I awoke, and I felt like I wanted to do some preparation for Thursday evening. I haven’t felt as attractive or as assured as I often do, so I needed to preen myself, for me.

Within the afternoon, I believed I greatest message Tatty Batty to substantiate what time we’re assembly tomorrow. However once I messaged him, I seen his WhatsApp image had gone, and my message solely had one tick.

For a second I believed he had blocked me, however I ended myself from overthinking about it as a result of there was absolutely no motive why he would do this. It was solely yesterday he spoke concerning the significance of communication – no approach would he block me with no clarification. He doesn’t seem to be that. 

A number of hours later, I checked to see if the message had gone by way of however it was nonetheless on one tick. I used to be on the cellphone to my good friend on the time, and he or she advised that I ship her his quantity, so she may see if his show image got here up. I despatched it together with a message saying: ‘He’s a pleasant man, I doubt he would do one thing like that.’

Nicely, extra idiot me as a result of my mate may see his show image.

I couldn’t imagine my f**ok buddy had blocked me. I wasn’t offended or upset about it, however I used to be genuinely actually shocked. I by no means anticipated him to simply ghost. I’m now left with a tonne of unknowns.

Contemplating we had plans to satisfy up, I discovered it much more disrespectful of him to simply block me. He may have simply cancelled and simply defined that our scenario isn’t what he needs transferring ahead. Now I’m left questioning whether or not he really needed extra, and he’s upset that I didn’t. Did he not wish to waste his time having intercourse with me once more? Or possibly he actually does have a girlfriend?

No matter it’s, I do know it’s not private and I can’t begin mentally torturing myself with questions over it. It is a man I by no means had any expectations from so I can’t begin pretending to care simply because he determined to dam me.

I’m constructive he’ll contact me once more (they typically do) however within the meantime, I’ve to let it go. 


After yesterday, I awoke considering that my present stint of abstinence just isn’t but meant to be damaged.

I imagine every part occurs for a motive, and it in all probability wasn’t smart of me to be prepared to interrupt my celibacy for a man I didn’t care an excessive amount of about. 

I’m not saying all intercourse has to steer someplace however the thought of my continued abstinence was to make sure I’m making extra significant connections previous to having intercourse and to heal extra from previous situationships earlier than transferring ahead with anybody else. So him blocking me put me again on my observe, as intercourse is now not on the menu tonight.

However later within the afternoon, he unblocked me and I acquired a message from him. I replied by pulling him up the blocking, which he denied by saying: ‘I’m actually sorry, I don’t understand how I’ve achieved that. It wasn’t my intention. Why would I block you? I’ve by no means blocked anybody in my life. It’s not me, it was 100% an accident. Not my type’

He should have thought I used to be born yesterday. I continued asking for the reality a number of extra instances. Ultimately, he admitted that he did block me and that it was as a result of he ‘doesn’t wish to do the shagging factor anymore’ as a result of his head just isn’t in a superb place.

Ordinarily, I’d settle for this as an especially legitimate motive to not wish to have intercourse with somebody, nonetheless, I nonetheless don’t imagine that that’s the real reality as to why I used to be blocked after which unblocked.

For some motive I’m nonetheless edging in direction of ‘girlfriend’ – I simply don’t imagine a phrase he says after he simply actually lied to me a number of instances.

Hope Flynn

(Image: Hope Flynn)


I went on Instagram and I’ve round 20 DMs from guys.

I do get requested out on dates fairly continuously, however I actually by no means go. I don’t know why that’s.

I don’t wish to shut myself off from males utterly, however I simply actually don’t really feel as much as relationship these days – I actually don’t belief anybody. 

Tonight I’ve determined I would like a bit of drink and meet up with one among my greatest mates so I went to hers for dinner and up to date her on ‘Tatty Batty’. This good friend additionally thinks he has a girlfriend.

A number of glasses of wine later we agree that we’re comfortable we have now one another, and we don’t want males anyway (who’re we kidding?).


At this time I’m excited as a result of I’m going to a rave with my mate. I truthfully haven’t been to an honest rave in London for some time, and I can not wait to simply let unfastened and dance to some good music. 

Unusually sufficient, I had a sense that I would bump right into a mate of mine that I’ve slept with earlier than. He and I had the most effective intercourse ever a couple of years in the past, and I’ve by no means needed to sleep with him since as a result of I don’t suppose we’re each able to topping the greatness of that evening.

It was arms down the most effective intercourse I’ve ever had, however I don’t suppose both of us has ever needed a relationship the opposite, and even thought-about it. 

I wasn’t too shocked once I really did stumble upon him on the rave. We ended up spending the vast majority of the night collectively dancing and having a good time.

After we have been chatting, we each agreed that we’re simply buddies and our one-time intercourse can by no means be topped – it’s the kind of encounter that stays in your reminiscence without end. If we have been to have intercourse once more, it could in all probability be an anticlimax.

We will each save that point in our wank banks and stay buddies that don’t f**ok. 


At this time, I went to one among my greatest good friend’s child showers. It’s all the time good to meet up with a bunch of friends and see the place they’re at with their lives.

I’m at fairly a unique stage of my life from the vast majority of them – I’ve been single for seven years whereas they’re all in long-term relationships and/or have had infants. 

After I acquired residence within the night, I made a decision to scroll by way of some relationship apps in mattress. I haven’t achieved this a lot for a short while, however tonight I’m feeling a bit of to see who’s on the market.

I really feel such as you’d want a full-time job to get by way of all of the matches on a few of these apps.

I matched with a couple of guys, and organized a relatively thrilling date with somebody. He’s fairly a bit older than me and I discover him actually enticing, which is tremendous uncommon for me on a relationship app.

I can’t let my failed expertise cease me from having a go together with somebody utterly!

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